hoping this is the last.

I liked this guy who’s definitely shorter than me.

the thing is, I confessed to him and he didn’t take it seriously. Although, it was my bad for confessing to him in a way that I’d look like drunk.

The thing is, I really like him. And for a week, he’s been giving responses that made me think he’s okay with flirting.

And then it hit me.

He was just being kind. Because he holds such position to require kindness to everyone (or not being snob to anyone). Because he’s too intelligent to think of my sexuality. Because he really doesn’t care about the world he belongs to or the people in it.

I thought all of his response were true, were genuine. Genuine to the fact that he’s okay with replying to me. He’s okay talking to me. With no apparent reason.

But… It was all an act. Out of shyness towards me. Out of kindness because of his position. Out of rationality because of his intelligence.

I was fooled. I felt like a failure once more, aside from the fact that he told me that I was a failure.

I’m okay right now, somehow.

But to think of it, I really was fooled. I can’t accept it that everything was just ‘out of something’.

Kindness was his definition of cowardice. 

I like him, even now. But, the wounds he inflicted was deeper than of the one whom said ,”you’re a fag, you’re a sinner, you must go to hell, you dirty person!”

Still, I like him. I must understand his introverted actions. 

this must be the last time, or else I’ll fail again.

gemini.

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debut ng itlog

EGG! 

MARYA!

CAMILLE!

JARINA!

AGRON!

BAKLA!

OO ALAM KONG HINDI KA BAKLA!

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!

hindi ko alam kung pano ko ssbihin to sayo, pero ikaw ung pinakahuling tao (dati) na ineexpect kong magiging kaclose ko at pagkakatiwalaan ko! omg alam mo na yun baeks! omg. haha

thank you sa lahat. I mean really, sa lahat. disiotso ka na. ang tanda mo na kadiri! at wala ka nang pag asang gawin akong straight HAHAHAH

pero omg. di ko na alam tama na to. hahaha

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY ULET

#agrown  #ingrown  

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gays, yes, that’s who they are… block 1

Mga bakla kayo (period, NQA)

That’s a joke, well I hope you find it funny.

Three words. Thanks. Remember. IDK.

(well the last’s one an acronym even though it has 3 words on it, so save.)

Let’s start from the last.

IDK why I’m doing this, because PLM’s just a ONE BIG CAMPUS, YOU KNOW THAT. (sarcasm intended) AND IT IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR US NOT TO SEE EACH OTHER (rolls eyes). But what I’m trying to say is… sayang. A year isn’t enough for me to really be close with all of you, it’s just a handful of people that I have bonds with, and a handful from those have I made a deep relations with, it’s just that I am saddened by the fact that I will not be with you for the rest of your four years.

Second, is that REMEMBER. Remember love, passion, and addiction, are three different things. Addiction, well yeah, every one of us sure know what that is, and I’d end up killing you if you deny that you don’t have any—kpop, kdramas, animes, rpgs, porn, reading, blogging, social networking… just anything under the sun—but know your limits, and learn to control, because everything too much is bad. Passion is for what you are doing, neither it has to do with your friends nor your family neither your relationships. It has something to do with the intensity of your work and the quality of the effort you put in it, and it is the most important among the three. And lastly, love. Love is everyone around you—parents, siblings, friends…and probably, lovers. But too much love can get to your head, overweighing the passion and the addiction, but too much passion and too much addiction will cause the same effect—disaster and unorganization. Have them equal and you’ll be responsible enough, not only to yourself, but to anything else that matters to you.

Remember that love and addiction can wait, but passion is utterly of outmost importance right now. Love was intended to break through these tender years, and addiction also, that’s why you need to focus on what you’re doing especially that it is the most needed in your course.

You have the summer to practice and be better. Goodluck!

Third and last is thanks. Thank you for the one year, bitches and scums! You are the best… well I’m still skeptical about that… KIDDING.

Maybe you are asking why am I shifting, why do I have to stay a year in architecture when I have the start of the second semester to shift, why am I shifting to a course not related to architecture, why am I shifting, why in the world am I doing this, or will I be happy if I do this.

Well, to tell you the truth, this page isn’t enough to tell you everything, from the roots of my decision to this, but I’ll tell you this… Sometimes in life, we will encounter such decisions when we need to at least change track, (darn you pieces of shits! I know what you think, but this is the only class who called me such specie! Jerks!), go to a different field.

I need to stand there to that spot, watch my friends move forward in achieving their dream, that was once mine also, and then shift my gaze to my goal so that the pain will not hurt so much as to it is before, because looking to that former path will only bring back my frustrations which has more, than the memories I’ve had with the people in that track.

I am just saddened because I will be going to a college I didn’t expect I am to be, and I will not witness you guys grow. But I’ll be a friend, and the school isn’t that big for us not to see each other, and facebook and twitter made it possible for us to talk one click away. But wait for me, I’ll be an architect… but by that time, you’ve accomplished many things more than I do.

I promise not to become all out (my mom would kill me if I do that, and of course it is a suicide) and uhm… I dunno, sana wala nang lalandi, lumandi, manglalandi, haharot, manghaharot, at haliparot sa inyo, ang college ay hindi playground na taguan ng puso ang laro. (bv)

Mag aral po tayong lahat.

See you around school. Hahaha.

Next year.

And see you on your graduation.

Four years after.

Ahahaha

Kidding.

Shueb.

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reblog and make a wish!


this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

YOOOOOOO

I SAW THIS ON MY DASH THE OTHER DAY AND THOUGHT “ITS WORTH A TRY” SO I WISHED I COULD GET A 3DS

LITERALLY LIKE 4 DAYS LATER MY DAD SENT ME A PICTURE OF THE 3DS XL HE BOUGHT FOR ME WHILE I WAS AT SCHOOL

IM STILL FREAKING OUT ABOUT THIS

holy fuck, I didn’t expect this to work, I was like psh, whatever it’s just a quick reblog, but I wished my Dad would actually respond back to me AND HE FUCKING DID A FEW DAYS LATER, I GOT A FUCKING TEXT FROM MY DAD TODAY WHO HASN’T SPOKEN OR RESPONDED TO ME IN MONTHS HOLY FUCK WHAT IS THIS MAGIC IT WORKS. 

I WANTED TO SEE MY BOYFRIEND AND I DIDN’T THINK I’D GET DAYS OFF BUT THIS WEEKEND I’M HEADING UP THERE??? THIS IS CRAZY SHIT 

SO LIKE I JOKINGLY WISHED FOR MY OWN LEN KAGAMINE AND THEN LIKE A WEEK LATER I GOT A LEN NENDOROID??? H ELP

WTF OKAY SO THIS SHOT ACTUALLY WORKS BECAUSE WHEN I WISHED, I HAD WISHED MY CRUSH WOULD LIKE ME BACK AND GUESS WHAT? I HAVE A BOYFRIEND NOW. WHAT THE HELLLLL?????

ok I’ve said this before but IM DOING IT AGAIN THE FIRST TIME I SAW THIS, MY WISH DID COME TRUE SO I REBLOGED AGAIN AND SAID IT IN THE TAGS BUT THEN I WISHED FOR SMTH ELSE AND IT LITERALLY LITERALLY HAPPENED LIKE A COUPLE DAYS LATER WHAT THE HELL SO NOW IM WRITING THIS HERE FOR YOU BC I DONT BELIEVE IN THIS CRAP BUT STILL IT’S AN AWFULLY BIG COINCIDENCE

THE BOY I FELL I LOVE WITH LEFT TO TRAVEL THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WORLD AND HAS BEEN GONE NOW FOR 3 MONTHS. WE HAVENT SPOKEN SINCE BECAUSE I DIDNT WANT TO MAKE HIM FEEL TRAPPED TO ME AND NOT ENJOY HIS TIME SO I WAITED FOR HIM TO CONTACT ME FIRST. I SAW THIS ON A PARTICULARLY LOW DAY WHEN I WAS MISSING HIM SO MUCH I CRIED FROM THE PAIN, GUYS I REALLY LOVE HIM, SO I THOUGHT MEH WHAT THE FUCK, AND WISHED HE WOULD JUST LET ME KNOW HE WAS OKAY.

GUYS.

HE FUCKING CALLED ME 20 MINUTES LATER

20 FUCKNG. MINUTES. LATER.

GOOD THINGS DO HAPPEN. AND ITS IN THIS POST.

I wish for someone to leave something in my ask.

OKAY SO I ASKED FOR A HEDGEHOG AND NOW GUESS WHO HAS A PET HEDGEHOG

UM I DID THIS LIKE SERIOSLY LAST WEEK SOMETHING BASIC AND IT HAPPENED???

my only wish is that to see EXO next year, no matter what happens to me, or to anything that relates to me. I want to see them in person, shakehands with them and tell them that I love them and everything they have given me, they have helped me, everything… I want to say everything as much as I want to them, and that is my only wish…. though, I know it’s close to impossible (I’m emotional here) but still I am betting on this post.

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Childstar

I rode the LRT earlier and it wasn’t an easy trip for me, not because it was a hassle to travel from Araneta back to my home, but because I really wasn’t lucky this time.

I rode home with a heavy heart.

As I watch the lights closely, they come in slow motion, but as soon as they step into my peripheral view, they blur… But as I think of the moments that had happened earlier, it pains me more, it makes my heart more heavy…

At least 10 of my friends (some were acquaintances) were at the line for SVIP Standing earlier at OGSMANILA, and I was with them. Not that I am going inside with them, but I was there because I want to… I want to wait for them to get inside, with an anticipating and hopeful and very excited heart… but really I was there because I was the one who was anticipating and hopeful for some blessings to come… and with this I mean free tickets.

But sadly there was none. Earlier, though, I promised my mom I’ll be home early… so I decided to go back home since I wasn’t home for about a few days now, and she was a bit happy and she missed me.

the thing about this post is that while I was boarding the train, a chinese child caught my attention

HE WAS SO CUTE i CAN’T STOP FROM ADMIRING HIM AND HE LOOKED LIKE LAY… (FOR ME)… 

If you know that picture of lay that he has with him a violin and he only has few hairs in his head… EFF. THAT WAS SO CUTE, 

AND THIS CHILD THOUGH HE DOESN’T HAVE THAT VIOLIN WITH HIM AND THE FEW HAIRS IS THAT HE LOOKED LIKE HIM, AND THE DIMPLE AND THE WHITE SKIN AND EVERYTHING… HE LOOKED SO CUTE…

what if lay’s parent’s knew about lay’s future? would they be also excited? or would they do something about it? or would they have foreseen his future? that because of his cuteness, he will shine and become popular? 

#butactuallyIlovelaynomatterwhat

#thathashtagsucks

#stopitshueb

#!!!

#lay  #exo  #exo-m  #childstar  

shuebsky:

생일추까함니다. 생일추까함니다. 사랑하는 성정아.생일추까함니다.

Earlier this day, we had celebrated Sung Jong hyung’s birthday. Even though we are far from Korea, that doesn’t mean we can’t celebrate our idol’s birthday.

Even though I am not the most solid inspirit ever known, but I am a part inspirit fan, we still celebrated sung jong’s birthday, I, together with my ever solid inspirit blockmates.

It was fun, eating tuna kimbap and ice cream. It’s a party between the three of us, so we were full after the petty celebration.

We just wanted to say to sung jong, that we wish him the best, and be beautiful as always!

love, fans, black lemons.

ONE GREAT WISH

As you all can see, I have re-blogged my post last September 3 which happened to be sungjong’s birthday. We celebrated it, with two of my friends, even though the celebrant himself is not present at our mini gathering. My only wish now, my one great wish is that I can go to their concert and at least celebrate his birthday even nearer to him. I mean, this celebration was done when he was still in korea, but now, he’s in the philippines na. We’re breathing the same air na.

That’s my only wish, to get nearer to him and say belated happy birthday to him and at least bring my gift even though there is less chance of giving it to him. 

Though, earlier stated, that I am not that of a solid fan, that doesn’t mean I can’t be one. The transition has been done during the span of waiting for their tour, and it has changed a lot.

This is my only one wish. He’s my bias in Infinite and I hope you can see through this post, my sincerest wish— to see infinite and say my thanks to them for letting me see through KPOP, that it wasn’t only about the looks but about the talent.

Please please pick me. Pick me. Thank you God bless~ Hwaiting~

#thebestofkpophappenshere

#they’rethebest

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those OTP fuck I ship them~

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